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Write for me

 

My head has been spinning these past few weeks. I’m not physically busy, but there’s so many things going on in my head. With the upcoming ART EXCHANGE event and plans to grow the business, I find it difficult to rest my mind.

 

As a result, I was a mess after a meeting this morning. I was in the middle of construction plans and negotiating deals, I found myself emotionally affected and unable to think straight. It was not good. In fact, I’ve had another incident similar but much much worse 3 weeks ago. I was sitting on a chair in Makati City Hall, crying so badly that I couldn’t talk. One sympathetic stranger even asked if I was pregnant, trying to blame my lack of restraint on hormones. I’m definitely not pregnant, and my City Hall problems is for another story. I hope this does not become a thing.

 

ANYWAY. In my post-processing of thoughts, I suddenly remember my retreat experience 2 years ago. It was an all-women’s retreat in church, held in MMRC Laguna.  In one of the activities, we had to spend time listening to God. That was very interesting to me because when I pray, I’m the one doing the talking and the thinking.

“God, thank you for… God, please help me in… God, what do you think of…?”

 

There’s not really much time dedicated to silence my mind and wait for a reply! Though a whole chunk of me was doubtful and bit was expectant to hear a voice, I sat in one of the nipa huts and listened.

 

Mostly I just heard the wind. But every now and then I write whatever comes into mind. A lot of very random words.

 

Towards the end of the exercise, my friends and I started to compare notes. I wrote one statement that still strikes me today. “Write for Me”. Whether it’s something my mind just came up with or not, in my heart, I know that this is from God. And this is something that I want to do too.

 

 

It is interesting that this is what came to mind after my stressful morning meeting. I have been mulling over the idea of making this part of the website more personal, but have been putting it off. Perhaps is the much needed nudge to put things into action. Now that I have encountered another significant incident, I feel that it’s time to start documenting my struggles and His faithfulness.

 

 

I have never been confident in turning my thoughts into written words. But God can choose to use ordinary people to give a message. Look at the ordinary fishermen in the bible!

When they saw the courage of Peter and John and realized that they were unschooled, ordinary men, they were astonished and they took note that these men had been with Jesus. Acts 4:13

 

 

So here I go! May I have the boldness of Peter and John. Please be kind. :)

 

 

2 Comments

  • Yeb Oldan

    29.03.2017 at 12:35

    Hi,

    I want to thank you for this very generous post. I really find this one very helpful to me. Like you, I also caught myself in an emotional roller coaster lately, and it doesn’t feel good. But one thing I’m grateful to God for are the mediums He uses to talk to me and assure me that He is still in control about everything in my life. I thank God for the godly people He sends and for the sermon podcasts, blogs like this and books that point me to the Scriptures. I was so delighted upon reading this post because I can identify to the situation. I have always dreamt to write for God, but because of my financial responsibilities, I find it hard to pursue it and opt to spend most of my time in my corporate job. Though I’m thankful about my work, I always catch myself dreaming and hoping to have an opportunity to pursue writing as a career. I would love to write for God and be used by Him to inspire others about His love. I also would like to commend you for pursuing this business that you have. Congrats po! I’ve read your blog about how this business started and the Words of confirmation from God that you received. Looking at how far you’ve gone, I just realized how important it is to commit every plan to the Lord first because with it comes the promise that He will be the one to help us establish them (Prov.16:3). Since then, I was inspired to pursue what I truly want to do and I am praying that one day, I’ll have the courage to pursue my very own business or maybe writing career too. :)

    Please continue to write and spread words of hope and motivation. Thank you! May our good Lord bless and favor you more! :)

    • alexiscventura@gmail.com

      31.03.2017 at 02:25

      Hi YEB!
      Wow, this made me tear up. :) You know, after some time, the magic of my situation also wears off for me. There are times that being here and doing this work no longer feels like the miracle that it is. I struggle to be grateful in all circumstances, when I have so many things to be grateful for! But recently, having to talk and write about it helps a lot! :) So yes, I hope you’ll have daily miracles with your career, writing, and with all your other dreams! :)